Need places to go to wear this dress more.
Just come to my house and I’ll take you on a date it’s ok
Don’t hang out with people who don’t love you. Don’t try to impress people who aren’t worth it. Don’t try to win people over who aren’t worth it. Focus on yourself, and focus on the people who are really awesome and who love you. Don’t hang out with people who make you feel like shit. Don’t spend your energy on them. There is so much pressure to be part of the right thing: well, you should create the right thing. If you don’t see it, create it. If you don’t see what you want, be the change you want to see.
"Daddy I’ve fallen for a monster"
If you ever get sad, remember that there’s a mash-up of “Under the Sea” and “Ms. New Booty.”
Everything’s setting me off tonight. I’m hearing one of my cats meow for food and I just want to cry. I want to go into town tomorrow and look for nice dresses and bags and stuff. Luke’s not been around for like a week and he seems to like being away, which I don’t mind, because I feel like he’s more of a carer than a boyfriend right now. But he’s not even spoke to me and told me once he misses me. And that was yesterday, I don’t know if I’m being stupid but I’m confined to my room barely able to move about, and in a lot of pain. No-one but Hayley has bothered with me since I’ve been in this state. Or really, since I’ve had my transplant. I guess now “everything’s ok” and I’m not dead it’s back to not being arsed.
The surgeon admitted when he told me about the surgery that it’s happened initially because they screwed up. He’s done 500 transplants and none of them has had this artery problem this far along. If it happens again after this surgery, and I end up in my wheelchair - like I am now - forever, I’m suing. I don’t want to sue my surgeon though because he’s a lovely, kind, honest man. But the trauma after the transplant was so horrible. If people ask me, I say I regret it slightly. Hell I don’t even remember saying “yes”! I just received a letter saying I was having an assessment for one. There’s SO many things people hold back about it that would put people off, but they never get told until it’s actually happening. I didn’t find out about all my complications until I was 6 months out and they started telling me things like I lost nearly all of my body in blood (the human body carries 12 units (about) of blood in the body and I lost 8), that oxygen didn’t get to a part of my brain that’s why my left hand/side isn’t as strong as my right.
I don’t know why I feel so upset tonight. I just feel lonely because no-one talks to me except Hayley, or Chris when I need laptop help (haha) - it’s making me want to give up and not even bother. I’m exactly like I was before my transplant, nothing has changed. And I pray to god it does with this surgery.
Fun Fact: The Hercules sound track will turn anyone, and I mean ANYONE, into a sassy black woman.
No but this is actually true. I was in the car with a bunch of white boys and this came on and we ALL STARTED SINGING.
LION KING BLOOPERS
These are actual bloopers from the cast while they recording, and they were later animated.
Where do I find one??
Surgery will be on the 27th July, and I’ll be in hosital for 10 - 14 days.